Can't believe I'm doing this again but eh, here we go

I'm feeling suicidal again and I don't know what to do at this point, in case you ask, no, nothing happened at all this time, but I am indeed feeling like shit and very tempted to throw myself while playing the fnaf 3 good ending theme. I am really tired of people making fun of me, feeling like I'm not that special, feeling I have no actual friends who do care about me. I just want to end it all, I want to be at peace and make everyone happy or at least satisfied. This is something I have to deal by myself, and even though I'd appreciate some help (either be professional such as therapy or not professional) I feel like I have to fix everything myself. I am deeply sorry for being a crybaby and for letting my intrusive thoughts win or whatever, but idk man, I just want to feel happy again

TL,DR: Heavily considering suicide... Again